Friday, May 15, 2015

Aisha #8



Anu was crying a lot. Her shirt was all soaked with tears. Her vocabulary was still very small and included a lot of gibberish, but she understood others words perfectly. And her uncle, Ramu, Rashi’s brother, whose family resides just a few houses down theirs, tried to tease her a little and now regretted that seeing the little princess crying unstoppably, trying all tactics to console her.

All he said was, “Hey Anu, how about we exchange Arun’s grandmother with Aisha.” Arun his son was just a week elder to Anu. Anu lodged herself firmly in Aisha’s lap, lest they start the exchange process. All the elders laughed for a while at the joke, but then as Anu’s cries didn’t stop and they all took to the task of consoling her. “Your uncle was only joking, my dear gulab-jamun. I’ll take you with me wherever I go. Don’t worry” As all the elders lay huddled around Anu, Arun felt he was not getting enough attention and he started to cry. Anu walked up to Arun who was in his mother’s lap and wiped his tears with her hand consoling him in her gibberish. But Arun seemed to understand as he stopped crying.

Living with her grandparents, since her birth, listening to the travelogues of Aisha and tales of Anand about his time in Airforce — though a tad bit exaggerated —  made her bond with them more than her own parents. Curiously, she called Aisha Amma - mother - but called Anand granddad, maybe that was because his hair was almost white, while Aisha’s still had so much black retained in it.

As always grandparents are a tad more lenient, and Anu was pampered by both sets of relatives, both sets of grandparents and her uncle and aunt.  Anu loved Anand and Aisha dearly, but her bond with Aisha was very special, Aisha was Anu’s hero and fan and she was her biggest support. Every word Anu uttered carried a lot of weight in the house. If Anand didn’t agree at first, Aisha would convince him to look at it from the point of view of Anu. Anu was always cocooned by Aisha, and being wrapped onto Aisha all the times. Everyone who saw them would mistake them for mother and daughter for they looked alike and Aisha looked much younger than her age.

The house was always filled by the gaggle of excited toddlers. Anu always wanted Aisha within her sight, so Arun had to spend most of his time in Aisha’s place, to be able to play with Anu. Since they were almost neighbors, Even Arun’s mother used to spend most of her time in Aisha’s house. Even Ramu would come there after his office and from there he would have to almost drag Arun to their house around dinner time. The few necessary admonishments were often made by her uncle, who used to scold Anu and Arun together for any mistake, whoever might be the culprit, and more often than not Arun shared the blame which he didn’t deserve, for Anu was the mischief-maker.

And one way to discipline Anu, whenever she behaved badly, as Ramu learned, was to threaten her that he would send away Aisha to USA along with Aamir. And if he is really angry at times when Anu was most disobedient, he would pretend to make a call to the USA, to Aamir, and Anu would instantly surrender, saying sorry clutching her ears. Although she would be crying for hours together after that and would make Arun and Aisha stay awake late into night reassuring her that Aisha wouldn’t be sent if she behaved well.

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When Anu was about four years Aamir and Rashi came to pay the yearly visit to Anu and they happened to come on the day of Raksha Bandhan and Rashi tied a Rakhi to her brother Ramu, and also brought him, from USA, Moto Razr, a highly coveted flip phone on the market. And he in return gifted a costliest Kanchipuram silk saree.

Witnessing all this, Aisha said to Anu, who as usually was sitting in her lap, “Your father used to cry a lot on this day, sitting with a sad face that he has no one to tie a Rakhi to his wrist. It used to take a lot of treats to get him back to normal mood.”

“My father doesn’t cry, only girls cry,” declared Anu.

Aisha brought few photographs to prove the point, and as she finished showing her those photos, “Hey Anu, where are you going?” shouted Aisha, as Anu got up from her lap and an outside. “Everything is so urgent for this girl, always rushing.”

After sometime Anu came back and approached Aamir, and said “Show your hand daddy.”

“What is it, my little princess?”

“Please show it.”

“Ok, here it is, my darling,” and as he pulled his sleeve back Anu tied a Rakhi to his wrist and said, “You don’t have to cry daddy, you can think of me as your sister.”

All of them stopped with their things and just stared at Anu dumbfounded, at her words and her actions.

“Now Daddy, can you please give me five rupees?” pleaded Anu.

Wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, and taking Anu into his arms, he  kissed her cheek and gave her a thousand rupees.

“But, but the shop-uncle said the Raakhi was only five rupees,” she said looking at Aamir confused.

Everyone unfroze from their surprise and took to laughing. Aisha came to them, pinched the little one’s cheeks and, “here take these five rupees and give it to shop uncle, and keep that money which your father gave, for yourselves,” and added, wiping her own eyes with her saree, “You truly are Anu.” Anand and Aamir nodded their heads in agreement, misty eyed.

“Can I share it with Arun?” asked Anu innocently.

“Yes you can,” replied Aamir.

“Already thinking about Arun a lot? He has begun charming you already young lady,” said Rashi.

“Yes, yes they will make a good couple, they are always bickering and Arun always eating Anu’s chocolates,” reported Aisha and they all took to laughing once again, while Anu looked again perplexed unable to understand why they were all laughing, but on seeing everyone else laughing she too started giggling.

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It has proved more difficult than expected to take Anu to the USA with them. She was very reluctant to leave her grandparents behind. Finally they had to lie, that it was a short trip and they would be back soon to make her come without tantrums and cries.

And after finally accepting that she had to stay with her parents, she used to make so many calls to Aisha and Anand, who went back to their own home in Keylong, much to the ire of Rashi as it was not cheap, those long calls to India. Anu called Rashi ‘mom’ in English, she reserved the sweet sounding ‘Amma’, mother in her native tongue, for Aisha. Rashi tried many times to make Anu call Aisha as granny, for the way she called Aisha was visibly sweeter than the way she addressed her, but having realized nothing could make Anu change the way she addressed Aisha, she resigned her attempts.



Anu would tell Aisha in her long calls about the big buildings in the USA, which arrested her attention from the get go. She would say to Aisha, New York is just like the way Keylong is in winter, snowcapped. She talked about every event her in her life, however, insignificant it might seem. She would tell about her friends, her classes, her assignments, and also about boys whom she thought to be good looking. She talked hours about her new bicycle, how her friend, a good looking guy, had taught her to ride it. She didn’t want to learn it at first as she felt she was too big now, having finished her high school, to learn riding a bicycle, but once she learnt it, her bicycle became her best friend.

“So what about Arun?” asked Aisha, suddenly.

“What about Arun??” asked Anu, puzzled.

“Well, you definitely seem to have found a new boyfriend, your bicycle teacher.”

“Amma! Of course not, he’s just a teammate in a project. Besides, I’ve not forgotten Arun. I wish he was here,” blushed Anu, “Also my bicycle teacher guy is a gay, so Arun need not worry. Hey, Amma, when Arun calls you next time, tell him all about my new bicycle except the fact that the one who taught me was a gay. Let's tease him a bit.”

“So naughty. Do call that poor guy, he always asks about you.”

“I know. I like Arun a lot too. But, amma, you don’t understand. It’s good that I’m not calling him now, this yearning to talk makes love sweeter and more intense,” and added, “Why don’t you come here for a while, it’ll make grandpa’s love on you double up,” she winked although it was just a voice call.


“Rascal! Being mischievous huh? You’ve become a big girl talking all big things and giving advice to me. Your grandpa can’t tell apart salt from surf even after tasting. I can’t leave him. Besides, he loves me enough already, and all I need is better winter clothes more than love, in this old age,” saying which Aisha winked too, although she had not known Anu winked at her earlier.



Friday, May 1, 2015

Aisha #7



Each wail came out like a wild siren and every time Anand’s heart jumped into his throat with raw fear, and almost banged the door of the room. Another set of cries, but this time they were followed by a high-pitched, loud cackle, unquestionably of a newborn, which sounded like music to him; the sound which washed all his fears with tears. Doctor came out and Anand didn’t wait for her to talk, as he has already heard the cry of a little one.

There were two cribs beside Aisha. Twins! He was almost dancing with elation, as his face swelled with absolute bliss after a worrisome wait. Twins it is! He kissed Aisha, who was looking at him and beamed weakly. “Very tired she must be, too weak,” he reflected and took a photo of his kids and shoved the camera back into his belt bag. Only then he realized something was odd. Only one of them was crying. The doctor who was standing at his back gathered all her courage and finally said, exhaling a deep sigh, “Look at the positive side Mr. Anand, your son is very healthy. But I’m sorry for your daughter. This happens sometimes when the twins are of the different gender. They don’t get an equal share of their mother’s resources.”

He looked at the cribs. They looked identical, but the stillborn girl was clearly very weaker than his son.

Somehow Aisha was not as distraught as she would have been as if she was expecting it. She tried looking at the fuller side of the glass. She prepared herself for a tragedy.

The weeks which followed were punctuated with alternate melancholy and cheery giggles. The death of their baby girl, who they would have called Anu, had she survived, has disturbed Anand a lot more than it did Aisha. Anand was angry, but unsure, on whom he was angry with, but he couldn’t display it. He put up a happier face for the sake of his son and Aisha.  They didn’t have the heart to sell away the stuff they have bought expecting a girl, nor did they have the strength to deal with the ordeal of having to look at those everyday, and so one day, they locked those things away in a suitcase, things that would have been Anu’s Clothes and jewelry, and rested it on attic permanently.

Going through the death of their baby girl has been traumatic to both and Anand had a family planning operation as agreed upon as they decided they don’t want any more kids. And the trial of the tragedy tamed Aisha greatly. Aisha, who was always on her toes, always in a rush, one who always acted like she had just an energy drink, vanished, and she became the silent version of herself.
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Aamir was an endearing boy and was an easy boy. But he did prove impossible in some instances, like when he would keep asking about his grandparents, because all his friends talked a lot about their grandparents and he didn’t understand when Aisha told him he hasn’t got any.

He also noticed he lacked cousins while each of his friends has got a ton of cousins. He was particularly inconsolable on the day of Raksha Bandhan, all of his male friends sported colorful Rakhis on their right hand tied by their sister or a cousin, and he would look at his wrist which was devoid of any bands.

But as he grew up, he understood better about his stillborn sister and lack of grandparents and cousins. He grasped that in one way he was the cause of death of his twin. Although unintentional, he usurped more resources, resources meant for two, the result of which made him come out extra healthy while his sister’s life force faded away. This kind of thinking affected him much. He became more introvert as he grew up, and talked very less, spent more time on his academics and computers. He never saw any girls, wouldn’t notice anyone. It took a studious girl, someone who loved math as much as he did to finally make him notice the other gender, Rashi, his lab mate.

After his engineering, Aamir married Rashi. They both were computer scientists and immediately after their marriage left to US where they had good jobs ready.

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Rashi was having her labor pains and everyone, Aamir, Anand and Aisha were waiting in the hospital. It’s frightening to Anand, as the only other time he had to hear those pains, pains of Aisha, there was a tragedy.

The howls of labors ebbed and there was loud cackle, a healthy baby. And in, they rushed and saw there was only a single rib. Not twins, Anand offered a prayer feeling thankful. Aamir sat beside Rashi, holding her hand, conveying lots of emotions through touch and eyes, emotions which can’t be put into words. Anand went to the crib to take the baby  but did a double take backed away, muttering, “It can’t be.”

Aamir and Aisha rushed and all of them did a double take. Tears ensued from Aisha for a different reason. Anand placed his hand on her shoulder, his own eyes misty. Aamir understood the reason. He remembered that photo, of him and his twin sister, taken at the time of their birth. And there couldn’t have been a greater similarity, as the baby in the4 crib looked exactly like the stillborn sister of Aamir. As Aisha took the baby in her hands and her cries subsided, and she pushed forth her hand to Aisha’s cheek, teeny tiny fingers touching her cheek, looking at Aisha, taking in the visage with her big baby eyes, as if she thought Aisha was her mother.

She was named Anu, a choice that was agreed upon unanimously, and the suitcase in the attic, which was exiled forever, saw the light of the day again. Anand and Aisha were over the moon adorning their granddaughter with all those jewelry. It was not just the old jewelry that has made a comeback, but so did the old self of Aisha, her youthful self. Aisha before the tragedy struck her; when she was just a newlywed girl, who loved traveling and one who was never quiet. It was the happiest house in the world.

Just two weeks after her birth she had a high fever, and the doctor said many complex sounding names which didn’t make any sense to the old couple, they didn’t have so many medical terms in their days. Doctor said Anu is not so well suited to cope up with cold climate, at least until she would be of age five, by when she should have developed enough of something that was lacking in her now.

She can’t be taken to the USA, nor can she be left at their grandparents, because Anand and Aisha lived in Keylong, Himachel Pradesh, which is in the Himalayas and is snow covered most of the time. So Anand and Aisha decided they would travel south, to Hyderabad, where Rashi’s brother lived. They took a residence there, until such time as Aamir can take Anu back to US. Although they didn’t say it aloud, both Aisha and Anand were guilty of being happy at their granddaughter’s sickness, for it meant she would be with them.

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